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Friday, 25 December 2009

I went to Jusco yesterday with my friends. Madei phoned me yesterday morning and I wanted to answer but my hand phone off suddenly. When I on back my hand phone, it off back. I was so angry with my hand phone. When I finished bath, I decided to go the phone shop and repair my hand phone. But the phone shop hadn't open yet. I was getting more and more angry at that time. When I back to home, I smash my hand phone but it didn't work at all. Then I told my mother about my hand phone thingy and she asked me went to Jusco's phone shop and asked to repair and how much is my hand phone costs if I want to trade in. I asked two phone shops and one of the shop's stuff told me that the higher price they give is RM 150. I feel unworthy with my hand phone. When I got back from Jusco, my mother brought me went to Krico and asked how much of my hand phone to trade in. They said if my hand phone isn't okay, it costs between Rm100 to RM 120, but if my hand phone is okay, it costs RM150. And my mother decided to buy a new hand phone for me also so my mother was planned to buy C510 Sony Ericsson for me. It costs around RM650. When I got back home, my father brought me go to a party and I was very very tired. I came back before 10p.m and I had nothing to do at home.
I was so bored at home today. I went to a wedding eve party just now. And it was kinda bored. Nothing to do at there. I need go there again tomorrow. I was busy this few days but I am free at home. Too tired d. Bye people. I will blog again tomorrow night. Good night people.

♥Friday, December 25, 2009

Complicated

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

Everything is being more and more complicated. My friendship is getting more and more worse now. I went to tuition this morning, and quite have fun there.I was like laughing non-stop. I don't know why I feel all my laugh are fake. I realise something again. LOVE IS COMPLICATED. sometimes, love can make people become sweet, but sometimes, it can make people sad. It was too complicated. I don't know what can I do. I just want to ask G0d.
Do I deserve to live up till now?
Can you shorten my life?
Can you take my life away and return for two people's health?
Why don't you let them happy forever?
Why don't you let them have a good family that won't always nag them and scold them?
Why? Why? Why? Can you answer me all those question?
It was too complicated, even G0d also can't answer my question. How to help them? I have lost my way. I must force myself into a corner of a place. I don't care even I collapse down. God bless them. Let them be happy forever, won't get scold and nag by family. This is what I hope now.
wrote by puzhen.

♥Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Heart Break

Monday, 21 December 2009

I felt my heart was breaking yesterday and amidst, I was quite sad at that time because I was hearing a song called Fa Ru Xue by Jay Chou. It's touching and nice. I love it's melody and lyrics. I listened to this song non-stop, repeat and repeat again. It's so nice. I felt my heart pain yesterday and I don't know what to do. I stopped everything that I'm doing.
Why we can't love a person without getting any hurt?
Why we should love a person secretly and never want to let the guy know that we like them?
Why don't you all tell me the truth?
Why you all wanna hide everything from me? Is it I can't let you all believe or trust me?
I really tired, I rather admit I'm lose. I also don't want be so suffer and you all don't need hide everything from me. When you feel want to tell me, you can just tell me but I don't hope you tell me the opening and never finish the ending. I don't hope this happen. If not...
Should I just give up to not know everything of yours?
Should I just pretending as I don't know you all sad or no mood?
Should I just release everything in my hand?
I don't know what can I do. I had lost my way.

♥Monday, December 21, 2009

Hate Her A Lot

Sunday, 20 December 2009

ATTENTION
Start from today, I just will treat my youngest sister good.but I won't treat my another younger sister as good as last time. I'll only hate her forever. Don't ever mention her in front of me again. wanna ask me fetch her to tuition, NO WAY! I can't do that. I wasn't addicted sitting in front of computers. Is I have nothing to do beside studying. You all parents only know how to nag, scold and beat you all own children, never know how to care a child well. Just know busying watching DVD and go out. Without this things, can't you all alive? Fine, I got to know something again and I learnt this from my parents. When people too bored, and always did something for a long time, we should scold or nag the people. I'm not emo, is my parents force me to be more and more emo. I feel that they won't treat me as good as last time. In their memory, I should not alive. I'm just invisible in their eyes. I won't talk to her from now. Want me to talk to her, I'll ask you all let me die first. Just know cry, cry is the smartest way in this world. 哭就能战胜一切

♥Sunday, December 20, 2009

Fed Up With Everything

Tuesday, 15 December 2009

I feel more and more tired nowadays. When I wanna do something, I'll feel very tired. Why my life so damn sucks. I rather take a thing to hit me on, and to wake up from the stupid, idiot dream. I had already know that the thing can't come true forever and ever, why don't I give up? I'm using a stupid, idiot, useless brain. Don't know what I'm thinking also.

I feel sad and moody today. Don't know why when she asked me go along her to look for someone time, I feel upset. The feelings like wanna kill me to hell. I really fed up with everything. I'll ask myself to not always texting with friends, I hope it won't get worst.

Christmas is just around the corner. I hope I can celebrate her birthday with her. I didn't see her for a long time, after this year I've a 10years friend. I feel happy when I know that I've a friendship that have already 10years. I miss all my friends but I miss ** also. I miss ** a lot of time today. I really don't understand what am I thinking. **brain sucks**

♥Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Don't Understand What My Mood Is

My mood is getting worse every day. I wonder why my mood will drop every day. Sometimes I was too over happy, sometimes I was moody over. I don't know why my mood can't be balance. Yeah!! I'm going to go out with friends tomorrow, I'm going to see Hui Ching and Xiao Ying. Miss them a lot. They're my close friends forever and I ever had. GTG!! GOOD NITE!! I continue tomorrow.

♥Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I Had Learnt New Chapter

Sunday, 13 December 2009

I learned a new chapter today at my tuition. My teacher said don't too believe our best friends, they'll betray us one day. And don't tell all our own secrets to our best friends. When I heard this, I recall back everything. Why I so stupid? May be what my teacher said is true, but I want to believe myself never made wrong decision again. I want to believe them. I very scare to have such a friend like my ex-best friends now. I really very scare. I am bad at everything, good at nothing. I'm such a useless human. I'm wasting my time on the things that won't happen in my life. I went to my friend's house today and I saw the presents that Hui Ching and I gave her. I helped her did her things and I took down the photos of the presents, very nice.

My close friend forever

Hui Ching and I gave.

Hui Ching gave.

I love all those presents a lot. I miss you all. Wanna see back you all.

♥Sunday, December 13, 2009

Mood Bad Again

Saturday, 12 December 2009

My mood kinda bad again nowadays. Should I just give up? I feel like nothing changes. Why don't you just shut up your mouth? I don't want to know anything. Everything is trying to make me recall back the incident that I should not start. I wanna try to forget everything but... I can't make it success. It's making people feel suffer and pain.

♥Saturday, December 12, 2009