Want to Cry out Loud
Tuesday, 16 March 2010
I'm actually happy today but when I saw that 'message', my mood started to change into moody. I even wanna cry out loud now, there's no reason for me to not cry. I had already CHEER! I'm still feel guilty to you. I'M SO SORRY! I don't want to make you to worry about a person who is so stupid. I wonder why I so hate today. What's wrong with myself? I don't understand myself. Sometimes I'm happy but, sometimes I'm not. I'm so confuse with myself. I know I'm exposing everything to my blog, but do I have a second choice to find a person to talk to? NO, I DON'T HAVE =(( I wanna go back to primary school's life, the life in primary school was the best memory that I had ever have. Nice memory! But, what did I done when I'm in secondary school? I end up with sadness and cry over the day and night. If everything can come true, I would like to ask God some question.
What a life u give me?
Have you ever pity me that I'm having the hurt life?
Who can let me really trust forever?
Who won't tell out my secrets?
Who will by my side when I'm sad?
Where do all my best friends go?
Can you help to lead in a happy life?
Can I exchange my life with other people that wanna live longer?
Can I scream out loud and tell the whole world that I'm sad now?
Whatever I said, it will never ever come true! I will never ever get any sympathy from anyone, and I can say that I don't need it even I'm sad. I will never ever believe a person easily, it may cause me get hurt from you or even cry because of you. I don't mind how will you look at me but I will still be myself, and will not cry easily anymore. Even tears drop, it's not my real problems anymore. Trying my best to smile, play hard but when I'm sad, nothing can make me ever smile again. It has already become the second me, and I'm living for the second life. I'm not playing you with my life, I'm really and I will never ever say don't want you to be my GOD SISTER! It's me, and will never change. The God will never ever help me change my life into a happy life, sadness is always following me. =(( I feel like wanna cry already.
I think I should stop here already. bye, readers.
Wrote by puzhen.
